It is exactly 1:38am here in Jeddah and I'm sitting in front of my laptop contemplating whether I should or should not disconnect myself from the social media. The main purpose of Social Media (i.e. Facebook, twitter and etc) is to connect you with your friends, colleagues and family. However, I personally feel more disconnected to these friends of mine rather than feeling connected. I believe that social media should help relationship rather than making a huge gap in them. Indeed that social media is building bridges between relationship but no one actually cross the bridge anymore. Conversations are minimal these days (well, intelligent conversation) and does "Like" a person's statement or status is considered a conversation? I don't know, I guess I miss the days when to have a conversation you need to go and meet the person. Call me a cave man, but I like it that way. Face to face conversation allows you to see and hear the person you're talking with. You might argue with me that it is similar to Skype, you can see and hear the person too, but it doesn't give the similar feelings. It's like something is missing, you're just there digitally not physically. I can't hug you nor touch you. Furthermore, my definition of friends are people you have experienced something with or have memories together not someone, who approved your friend request. I believer the true definition of "friend" is lost in today cyber social world. Can you actually called someone your friend if you never really talked to them let alone say "Hi" to them in the first place?

It's 2:04am now, I still don't know what is the main purpose of this entry. I guess I'm just procrastinating and I just don't feel like doing my English work (which is due tomorrow) or perhaps I'm just sick and tired of being the one who trying so hard to preserve the friendships that I have built and cherished. What I meant was, relationship works both ways. You and I. I can call you or you can call me. Why am I the only one who is trying so hard to maintain this friendships of our? It's like that you don't make any effort to maintain this friendship. I believe that if you don't put any effort in this relationship, you don't really care about it and more importantly you don't really care about me. Well, you might argue with me that you're busy with assignment, your schedule is packed and you don't have enough time. Really? If you have enough time to be on Fb, don't you have enough time to ask me how am I doing? A simple hello, is enough to tell me that you do care. But then, I believed that certain people are meant to be in you life for a certain amount of time only. Maybe your time or our time is up and from here now onwards we're just strangers who claimed to be friends on Facebook. Living overseas made me realized a lot of things especially things regarding friendship. I'm not writing this to make any of my friends feel bad nor to hurt them intentionally. I'm writing this to express my personal opinion nothing more than that. I bet no one will even read this as blogging is considered "socially outdated" like how a person labelled me the other day. I'm "social outdated". Well, to that specific person, I have to say "I'm proud that I'm socially outdated, I don't need to know what you ate for breakfast, what time did you sleep or the colour of the cat that just crossed you path but I do like to know your ideas, opinions and perspective about things. I prefer to be updated in terms of my knowledge rather than about other people's personally things that sometimes I don't really care".

Well, It's getting pretty late already and let me end my blog with a statement and a question for you to think about. The statement is that I'll be going offline soon, will deactivate my facebook, twitter and blog probably around December 2012. So, the question is "Are we still friends even though I'm not in your list of Facebook friends? because I felt like I'm not even your friend when I'm on the listed. I guess in a word of a bastard that I know (excuse me for my profanity) "Why I wasted so much time on you is a complete mystery" and I'm not planning to waste anymore of my time if you don't want to give up your time for me.

Love, "the outdated friend"